I am a busy wife

Hallo bloggers.. U olls sihat ker? Me as usual physically nampak sihat but i am actually sick mentally.. Life as a pilot's wife memang agak suffer.. You'll be always left lonely for a quite long duration.. Kerap sangat.. Every 2 weeks in a month is a must.. And me, even tough i am fairly bz with my working shift, alhamdulillah.. I am still able to manage myself, hubby as well as our home sweet home..

Fyi, i had a miscarriage in march this year.. At that time i wasnt realized that i was actually pregnant.. Prior to that, i was having per vaginal spotting which were on and off for quite sometimes.. Initially tought it was due to the menses but it was actually a threatened abortion.. The moment i knew i was pregnant.. Dah lambat coz the next day i was saddened up with the complete abortion at the age of 6weeks.. Ooo.. Sedih lah jugak although i was not that ready to have a baby masa tu.. But then tu semua kuasa Allah Swt.. But now, i rasa sgt teruja to have 1 sbb i dah betul betul ready. But then biasalah.. Bila dah nak sgt, lambat lah pulak.. Tapi i redha.. Hanya mampu berdoa sahaja.. Insyaallah..

Rite now, hubby xder dekat rumah.. He is in kl attending a course till next week.. Boringye duduk rumah sorang sorang.. Even my daily schedule i dah packed dengan locum and etc, rindu still rase.. Sape tak rindu hubby if dah lame tak jumpe..

Ok lah.. Till then dear.. Will update some more to which i pun tak tau bile..

sort of promotion

My reception dress by Rizman Ruzaini


kasut by Rizman Ruzaini


solemnization dress by udaimatunnur. boleh survey baju dia n make sure buat appointment dulu.

casualty versus anaesthesiology

hari nie nak nangis..
after attended a course on central venous cannulation i felt like burst out my lungs and tell everybody yang i am so stress right now. kenapa? okay let me explain kenapa.

1) kene tinggal coz hubby pergi outstation ke kuantan for a course. pilot super duper and super extra busy yang teramat. he came back home at 130am for 2 consecutive nights.. nak sakit hati tak boleh sebab itu memang kerja dia. bila balik kena dengar luahan perasaan dia pulak. tapi yang.. me myself pun stress jugak. tempat baru x best. i really miss my old workplace..

2) pergi course yang i think i shouldn't attend at all sebab i am an anaesthesiology Medical Officer and all the things they showed me ive been doing it during my MO ship. as a matter of fact i think my head of department did not aware about the relevancy of the course to me. not to say i am arrogant by saying that but as far as i am concerned the remaining medical officers in my department should be given an opportunity to attend it. not me.. obviously..

3) the worst part is actually, i really miss kangar hospital. staff dekat situ dan tak lupa my bestie.. dr. kamilah manan. rindu kamu tau.

all in all.. i actually feel very lonely.. hubby pergi outstation for 2/52, kat sini kawan x ramai.. and bestie saya jauh kat sana.. mummy and daddy pun jauh.. sedey...


ini pilot saya.. bukan semua.. sorang jerk.. heee


kawan baik saya!!! dr. kamilah..

dili's wed

ok.. these are some of the pixies taken during my sis in law's wed. nak tunggu official photographer upload pixies lambat lagi.. mmm.. agak susah untuk comment kenapa beliau lambat sangat nak upload dalam official website die.

to dili, even i noticed u were not really satisfy with the dress but for me u looked super duper cute at that time.. and the pelamin too.. sangat cantik. from the solemnization to reception almost everything was in pink. suka sangat dengan colour pink adik ipar i nie. takpe becoz hubby die putih melepak.. hehe... just njoy the pixies n again, congrates sis!

close to u..

hai peeps... lamenye x update my blog.. for your info, i just get my official date and letter untuk transfer which is from kangar to penang. 2 perasaan yang ade dengan i skrg nie... seronok and sedih.. yelah mcm mane tak sedih, ive completed 2 years of my housemanship dkt hospital besar kangar then followed by medical officer for another 1 year in anaesthesiology and intensive care unit. im gonna miss all of them so much and i am pretty sure about that.

back to 3 years ago, i was just graduated from my medical school, n in the same time felt so excited to begin my new life as a doctor. my parents was so proud of me at that time, everybody was thinking that once u start ur work as a doctor u are blessed enuff with it. it seemed wrong because housemen are just like a 'kuli'. u cant argue but only must and have to follow orders from ur superior one. during my time, the total of housemen weren't as today where we have quite a large amount of number.

still ingat my first posting was obstetric and gynaecology. sangat tak best and sampai sekarang i still hate o&g. that department is so stressful. yelah, mcm mane tak stress, u have to deal with 2 life. nyawa ibu dengan baby.. nak conduct delivery satu hal, nak make sure baby nangis satu hal.. mother dah delivered kene make sure bleeding from the vagina plak secured. dah settle bab bleeding kene perform episiotomy plak.. aduhai.. yang paling tak tahan the amniotic liqour punye bau.. mak ai.. melekat sampai ke baju.. everyday kene basuh labcoat.. neway, itulah pengalaman.. the subsequent postings were enjoyable.. eventhough busy tapi at last i managed to gain and learn lots of thing. bila jadi MO baru rase memang berbaloi jadi HO yang buat seme kerja dulu dulu.. tak lah terkial kial sangat..

so tomorrow is the day. kena report duty dulu dekat jkn penang then only they decide nak hantar i ke hospital mana. hopefully dapat lah area seberang jaya. tak larat ad tak sanggup nak ulang alik kalau dapat ghpp.. hubby pulak outstation ke kl and maybe lepas tu ke kuantan for his licence renewal. i thought doctor is the busiest profession tapi airforce pilot nie lagi busy rupenye eh?

tapi xpe.. as long as i dah transfer and dkt dengan hubby dah cukup..

physically and mentally exhausted

actually i just came back from penang with my hubby.. feel so bored so dat is y i ajak hubby pergi sana. nak dijadikan cerita jam dekat penang x payah nak cerita lah. foe me x kesah because i am free tomorrw i mean off but for hubby it is a big deal.. x tahu kenapa suddenly his mood nampak sgt tetiba berubah.. so dari rase bersalah sbb ajak die datang ferinngi terus rase nak marah.. perkahwinan nie betul betul menguji kesabaran ek? hmmmm....

my period is actually has past its due. i'd checkedd my urine pregnancy test yesterday and unfortunately it was negative. it is a bothersome to me sbb i nak sambung my supplementary. if negative meaning i x pregnant so i can continously take that. if pregnant meaning i have to stop. am i rite? tapi nampak nya x de pun symptoms pregnant ni. so memang x kot.

*still dalam mood kahwin.. back to reality zatie.. dah habis zaman awak

Random entry

Hai everyone. Lamenye xmenjengukkan diri dekat blog nie.. It is not i dont want to continue berblog but time is apparently limited. Banyak sgt kerja till diri sendiri pun x terurus. But i am lucky enuff to have my hubby besides me even we rarely seeing each other... Ye lah one of us dekat kangar n hubby dekat butterwoth but neway, im njoying myself travel from butterwoth n kangar to an fro.. Isteri mithali? Not really.. Hehehe...

After getting married i am still doing my locum at the private clinic.. Purpose? Of course for financial stability. Wishlists for me sangat byk.. Macam macam dalam mind nie nak beli.. After one time i terfikir nak beli handbag.. And mangsa this time is mulberry.. The designs are so cantik.. Indescribable... But itu adalah godaan godaan syaitan belaka.. I need to save more money since roadtax xsettle lagi, kl n malacca trip by next week.. And the most important thing is.. Card credit.. Hehehe.. I wish i dont have any. *sigh.

Sedar x sedar dah lame jugak ive been staying in anaest department. The learning process over here is actually quite lembap. When u already feel comfortable here, u wont feel any urgency in doing work. Tapi after 2 of our specialists left, there are another 2 come in as a replacement. They are all such a nice person particularly in guiding us for a master programme to which ill be applying by next week. It sounds really scary to me. Anyway im still lookung forward for a quality time which i think is crucial for both me and hubby.